Stories are medicine. They heal us because we draw emotional connections to them. Over the last few years I have been not only studying the healing arts, but also storytelling, screenplay writing and its various aspects.

I love Carl Jung’s work. In fact he laid down the term “Inner Child” observing his own behaviors stemming from conclusions he had drawn as a child. Then he also coined the terms “Anima and Animus” which in my understanding of dealing with various issues of the feminine and masculine, I can say are revolutionary. But to treat this as psychology i.e science based on human behaviors and drawing structures out of people’s behaviors is like applying a formula to film-making and using that formula to imagine. It is regressive and it doesn’t work. Yes you do need to understand structures for the awareness of these heals and helps you break your patterns. However, far too often, we get caught up in the science and forget the one thing that led us there – the mystery, the unknown. This itself takes us to the art.

Past life regression, inner child work and even rebirthing-breathwork heal you because they are eventually art forms. They point to the unknown. They bring out aspects of you that you wouldn’t otherwise would’ve guessed at. However, if you don’t correctly see what the unknown is trying to point you to, you reduce it to a story without understanding its implications and accessing its multidimensional nature. It is this very nature that heals us.

Recently I came across someone who had undergone multiple past life regressions from several people. They had served a purpose, and yet she found it difficult to change herself. At the end of a very long history-taking that unfolded, I told her she doesn’t need regression sessions. She was confused. Then I told her how through every session she had come to strengthen her core belief that no therapist had perhaps seen or acknowledged – her mind had been using these sessions to confirm her theory how one family member was against her and was out to harm her wellbeing. I told her what had changed the course of my inner awareness at a time when I thought my own mother was against my own wellbeing, and I had tried various ways to “cut cords” was the advice – “Your mother is your guru. Find that guru in her and you will be spiritually liberated“.

It took me 7 years to go from acceptance to surrendering to living this truth. The journey was worthwhile every bit for it taught me an important lesson – that wellbeing doesn’t come at the cost of deleting people in your life but comes from a healthy balance of inter-dependence. The rest of the session unfolded without glamour. She reported a shift in herself afterwards.

This is where the story was the same, but the perspective different. An ex-Buddhist monk often quotes, “the mind has the tendency to prove itself right“. True healing through stories happens when the very beliefs you are “certain” about are debunked in face of reality; reality which is observed as a 360 degree perspective that is larger than our own finite viewpoint. This is the true “stepping out” of a person as a hero in the oft-cited “hero’s journey“.
A sign that you are truly being led by a larger perspective rather than your own narrow-sense, is that you suddenly feel responsible in giving to others what you thought you lacked. In this woman’s case it was compassion, which is what she desired from her family member. In my case, it was unconditional acceptance which I desired from my mother.

There are several “common truths” or common themes one discovers through these journeys irrespective of the healing modality one uses. Here are some of the most striking ones which I personally keep discovering again and again in various aspects, like a kaleidoscope continuously moving –

1. It wasn’t personal 

When a woman who had been routinely physically beaten up as a child by her parents underwent inner child healing, at one point she looked into the eyes of her parent deeply in a regressed state. At that moment she looked into the thoughts and emotions and only saw pain there. The pain of not being good enough. It had nothing to do with her. At that moment forgiveness occurred without using the “f” word. When you truly start understanding this, you allow people’s behaviors to “pass through you” or you quietly “reinterpret” without making it about the other person. Ultimately, as the Toltec wisdom says, nothing anyone does or says is because of us. And the other way round.

2. I am innocent

Behind every act of ours there is an intention operating. However harmful the act may appear to be, beneath the act is innocence. It is rather a continuation of the above understanding in fact, that it isn’t personal.
In a role reversal, another person regressed and saw that he had almost killed someone. His core issue was guilt. When he looked into his own intention, initially it was the pleasure he got from exerting his power. When he looked deeper, it hit him that he felt powerless which drove him to believe that. When he looked even deeper, he saw that he needed the power to protect the territory he was designed to protect. At the end of the day this was a man doing his job. And one might argue, rather too well. The core intention was harmless and innocent.
We cannot hold ourselves guilty for what we do not know about ourselves.

3. I am the only one punishing myself

She came for a regression because the one she loved had married someone else even though he too loved her and now they both regretted it. When she regressed she saw that she was angry that he had left her in one life and never returned even though he said he would. So she created this as a means to punish herself and her lover, a contract that “I will make sure we will keep each other apart”. When she went into the light of higher consciousness before she chose that lifetime, her spiritual guide warned her and asked her not to choose this kind of lifetime. She did it anyway. There she understood that no one else is doing the forgiveness because no one else is doing the punishing. We are the only creators and choice makers. This whole belief of a god punishing or forgiving us is a trap to escape our divine power – the power to choose kindness and let go.

4. Lack of awareness is the only mistake (sin)

A profound shift occurs when you view yourself on the scale of Eternity rather than on the scale of time. You begin to see that the only way to understand your mistakes is awareness. The game of earthly existence is forgetfulness. We forget we have lived here before. We forget we have multiple chances to learn, play and grow. We forget we are beyond our limited roles that we are playing. We forget we signed up for those roles. So we forget why we did it. And we start taking this game seriously and get more entangled. The only medicine is awareness. The only healing is awareness. Awareness of our infinite nature, not just a mental understanding, but making day to day, moment to moment choices based on this. Awareness that helps us step out of the seriousness of the game, instead of wanting to abandon the game through death or suicide and instead play it, rather than suffer it.
Stubbornly sticking to the awareness that “I am Love, I am Light” is our only redemption.

5. Nothing goes away until it teaches you what you needed to learn

Patterns repeat because life lessons are not Aesop’s fables with a moral of the story cut out for you to know. Often people opting in for regression are what we call mature souls. Just as a person has an age, the soul too has an age depending on the kind and number of lives it has led. This reflects in the instant maturity a person seems to be born with. The more mature, the more subtle are life lessons. They are more experience-based understanding of the qualities such as compassion, forgiveness, humility, oneness, generosity of spirit. One experience is usually not enough to imbibe these qualities. And here is a lesser known secret – these qualities are not to be ‘understood’, they are to be integrated as your very existence, your very physical presence. It’s as if you become more and more impersonal, experience after experience until you become a living embodiment of these alone.

5. Freedom is the absence of belief

A good example was a woman who was jealous that a certain family member was better off than her and was constantly comparing herself. In a space of expanded awareness she saw how this so-assumed ‘deprivation’ had given her an inner strength that helped her become a bigger person. In this understanding this belief of higher and lower fell. There was no need to compare but rather to collaborate and grow. Freedom came from the belief and not from getting rid of the person who she believed made her unhappy.
True freedom or liberation is not about loss or gain of anything external. It has nothing to do with our responsibilities. No lover is going to set you free. No social contract is going to bind your true nature. Even spiritual contracts only serve you to put greater effort in revealing who you are.

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If you are choosing to tell yourself stories, ask yourself whether those stories empower you, villainise you or victimise you. It is easy to use healing to beat yourself up. It is easy to use mythologies to lift yourself up. We are a collage of stories. Sometimes we forget that. We make our whole life journey about just a single story. That is like saying you will wear yellow and shades of yellow only for the rest of your life. If you are truly courageous, you would, like I have often started doing to challenge myself, ask yourself, Who would I be without this story?

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Next post: A fun way to rewrite your victim story. 

I heard a second case of a person who got mentally thrashed in a Vipassana course. It’s surprising that no one really speaks about the fact that Vipassana, just like any other spiritual technique has its pitfalls. I know I deeply suffered during and after the course. Having been an anapanasati meditator, which is the first step of Vipassana, for almost 3 years before I went to the course, I’d felt and observed wonderful leaps in my own consciousness. It was easy to flow with life. Then when I entered the course, it put me under pressure to observe when in fact my natural practice was to dive in and emerge from every sensation. The disruption lasted for 2 years after the course. Perhaps reflectively, I also met people who waxed eloquent about Vipassana but were so obviously hard on themselves and disconnected from their bodies, under the facade of observation. This created more anger in me towards the practice of meditation. Thanks to another breathing practice, Rebirthing-Breathwork, I was able to heal the wounded attitude towards meditation. One day I looked up the anapanasati sutra on the net. In that the Buddha talks about how gradually awareness proceeds from bodily sensation to emotion to energy and then to the energy current called ‘dhara-pravaha‘. In his case, of course, this naturally took place. I realised that it was not the process, but the institutionalising of something which is an organic progression, and giving it a time boundness that perhaps went against my inherent nature. I also later learnt that in the original vipassana courses people were allowed to speak. My intuition would keep asking me to write, to express during the course, but following the norms I didn’t. I later understood the inherent creative nature one is born with that seeks to express. When not allowed to, it destroys internally. It took a long time for this reactive self destructiveness to heal. In a larger perspective, no technique is flawless. And I hope those who do opt for a Vipassana course, perhaps the sensitive ones, do a strong consultation with their intuition first. 

This is just the grey side of one technique. But I’ve ended up in these grey zones for many other techniques which are worth mentioning. Especially at a stage where I am arriving more and more into a space of “Let It Be”.

Pitfalls of Past Life Regression

The burden of compulsive regressing

A few months ago, I was going through an inner state of helplessness, lethargy and a constant feeling of being blocked (which a few people told me was the presence of  not-so-well-intentioned ‘entities’ in me). During this time I came across a page from a healer in Pune called Mana, whose work resonated with my own spiritual insights I was having about 3-4 years ago. She was getting these insights through, not surprisingly, hypnotherapy and past life regression. For about a year I was unable to regress. This ‘disability’ began when I had entered an inner void at the deepest point in one of my regression sessions about 2-3 years ago and saw that I was nothing, I was only the emptiness around. After that I lost an inner will to regress. Yet not knowing how else to heal the issues that still surfaced in my life, I dragged myself searching for people who would take my past life regression sessions. In the session with Mana, I told her at the beginning that I was unable to regress, and then we went into a hypnotherapy session. At one point she just took me to a light body stage and I waited there, seeing in front of me the person who’s karmic exchange with me was blocking me. Without getting into any past life, Mana told me to do the exchange there itself. I was unsure if the healing would happen this way. It was deeply powerful as it took me to a higher state of ‘seeing’ than in my earlier sessions. When I came out, I was surprised and asked her how that happened. She said “You don’t need it. You’re done with that phase”. That’s when I realised that though the block might be in a past life, one needn’t go there if one doesn’t wish to.

Handing readymade solutions

Much prior to this revealing session, I’d undergone quite a few unsatisfactory healing sessions during this ‘enforced’ regressive phase. In some, the past life regression therapist focused inordinately on the story part – the dates, the validation, the completion. Not just that, the worst were the ones who handed out conclusions, about what was going on with me and what I should do now in response, in contrast to allowing the various points of your life to emerge for you to connect them. The truth is, past life regression only works if you employ both your subconscious memory AND your conscious logical mind.

Loving unconsciousness and glorifying it

One day I received a client who had come to me for past life regression therapy. After a fairly clear first session, she was disappointed she had not gone completely under. She said she didn’t want to aware at all and wanted that thrill of just being absent. That is the misuse of this technique. Many people get into a past life regression to see a better movie about themselves which is where the therapy turns into an ego pampering session. Over years I have consciously stayed away from past life regression therapist groups of my own teacher, Dr.Newton, to avoid the mindless glorification of what one saw in one’s past lives. Many after reading my experiences of past life regression on this blog expect to see something phenomenal and some have even seen such lives, but the truth is, it’s not the validation, the what-you-were excitement that is going to give you any soul growth. It is your conscious ability to ask deeper, more honest questions and a driving need to expand your consciousness that determines the success of this technique. I have spent weeks and sometimes years with a single past life experience, receiving (not figuring) the many layers that it is unraveling of my psyche. This receiving ability is developed not by some therapy, but by a daily (really ‘non-exciting’) meditation practice.

Pitfalls of Rebirthing-Breathwork

This practice that I love very much and endorse a lot also has its pitfalls. Many people get very excited when they read about Rebirthing Breathwork on the net. However, because this technique is so simple, it runs the risk of being ‘packaged’ with something else. The most common request I receive is that of group Breathwork. In fact my own first experience was in a group of about 40 people in a hall, all breathing together, for about 2 hours. Leonard Orr, the pioneer of Breathwork, and so many of his loyal followers strongly suggest against doing group Breathwork.

The trap of group Breathwork

More than 70% of detoxification of the human body happens through breath. Over the years of taking people’s Breathwork sessions, I have ended up ‘smelling’ or getting drowsy from the anasthesia and other drugs/chemicals that people have breathed out through their noses during the sessions. At times I have even passed out. Imagine that you have such a person breathing next to you in a hall, or even worse, you are that person. Effectively, you are then breathing out your ‘muck’ and at the same time breathing in someone else’s. There’s another reason where personally I felt group Breathwork was not working for me. If you were born in an environment where the place was cramped, or you were hurried away immediately to accommodate for the next woman laboring in emergency, then doing group Breathwork can trigger this trauma, and as there is no personal support taking you through this opened up experience, it might push this trauma even deeper into your psyche.

Excessive focus on ‘doing’

I’ve attended 4 retreats conducted by international students of Leonard, many of them learning under him for almost a decade. Every retreat teaches me something totally new about Breathwork that was undiscovered before, based on the personal Breathwork practice of the one who conducts the retreat. A Rebirthing-Breathwork retreat is not just about breathing, but about certain water, fire and earth practices also. While attending a recent retreat, the focus on doing was extraordinary. The message given was “Why are you resting when you could be sitting by a fire?!” (and it is no small feat to sit by a fire on a hot afternoon). Each day of the retreat became a long list of to-dos. Not just that, but even the breathing was made into something forceful, effort-ful. Breathing continuously in a rhythm for 1 hour takes efforts but there is an intuitive direction to it. But when you breathe to push through, Breathwork becomes more like a treadmill, exhausting, rather than energising you. Moreover, it enhances your sense of control whereas in fact Breathwork, also known as Intuitive Breathing, is about relaxing and giving up control, allowing your breath to take over. What this forceful Breathwork can also do is weaken your heart muscles. One of my very dear friends who got me onto Breathwork experienced this after a year of practicing Breathwork diligently. There is exceptional beauty in the breath because it awakens a primal bliss in the body that exponentiates aliveness and healing at a hardcore cellular level. If one doesn’t practice Breathwork correctly, this same technique can do as much harm.

Not having the correct knowledge

About a year ago I received a client who had undergone intense Breathwork sessions from a senior therapist where he had breathed, cried and howled loudly throughout the sessions he had told me. This therapist had put him straight into warm water (which is only recommended after a minimum of 10 dry Breathwork sessions), which had sent him into intense spirals of grief. When he came to me, he still complained of ’emotional pain’. On going deeper I found out that this therapist perhaps practiced a version of Breathwork where a client crying translated to healing. That is however not true. It can give a high to the therapist who thinks there is healing happening. But for those whose ‘block’ is actually the weepiness and perhaps self-pity they undergo, the healing is actually shaking them out of the drama and getting them to connect to their breath.

Pitfalls of Inner Child healing

Too much openness

When you start connecting with your inner child, you may begin to re-experience the raw emotions you underwent as a child. For a year after I had finished my inner child intensive healing retreat, I was unstable, couldn’t make decisions, became hypersensitive, ran away from home because I was unable to face my parents’ nature, couldn’t work and had emotional breakdowns in a street where seeing a crowd overwhelmed me. It was the most trying time of my life. My sensitivity had come open without any protection. Through this I learned that alongwith inner child healing, one needs to be taught how to take responsibility for one’s feelings and not get carried away by them through inner parenting. For this, an inner parent has to be firmly established, especially in the face of dark emotions that can spontaneously come up.

Over-identifying with the child within

Another time was early last year when I refused to grow up in ways I knew life was asking me to. I had become identified with playing the role of an inner child under the illusion that being childlike is what being ‘real’ or authentic is all about. I learnt, very slowly, that sometimes to live the wisdom in you, you have to play many other roles. And although vulnerability is very highly rated on the internet, socially, it is not wise to be vulnerable where one needs to be decisive and direct.

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Through this course of ‘evolution’, I’ve come to realise that every technique stays and then leaves. Every technique has a place and one has to go about very intuitively, experimenting with alertness. GD, a spiritual teacher, had a nice way of explaining this. He would say that one starts with the masculine in the initial part of this spiritual journey, where the focus is on doing and learning – doing affirmations, setting intentions, breath techniques, visualisations, manifestations, et al. After a point, you flip into the feminine. Here you begin to unlearn all the techniques. You fall into acceptance rather than pushing yourself to accept. You find yourself listening intently rather than doing. You let go of keeping intentions because there is a trust innately present, an inner sight that the divine has taken over and is unfolding a path through you. I am hovering somewhere here at the moment.

PS: I do online sessions over Skype related to inner child counselling, EFT, The Work etc. for which you can write to me at [email protected]. I no longer conduct past life regression. I am also formulating my own Rebirthing-Breathwork retreats based on the one one one work I do with my clients. In case you are looking for Rebirthing-Breathwork retreats being conducted by Rebirthing Breathwork International in India, please contact their page. Love. 

Recently I did a past life regression for a client who experienced a “wound” or a block at the back of her throat. Her query for going into a regression was to find clarity about her career. She was wondering if she should pursue being a doctor. She also had a great love for singing and had studied it off and on but never really pursued it full-time. During the regression as she explored this stuckness at the back of her throat she went into a lifetime where she was a musician. During the integration of how that related to this life, she became aware of the belief that she needs to suffer, to delay her happiness, in order to deserve it. This led to her ignoring the pursuit of music which was her heart’s calling. Her mind though didn’t allow it because she received instant joy from it. In the process of regression, her body didn’t allow that to remain hidden anymore. In my experience, such unconscious wounds manifest into diseases or sickness.

For over a year my intuition kept saying that I was ready to do healing and music full time. I ignored it for financial reasons. I kept getting sicker and sicker for a year. Undiagnosed. Until a check showed me that my vitamins were super low. At one level, I attributed it to my diet of being a vegetarian. At a deeper level, I asked what do vitamins really mean? Vitality came the answer. Where was I feeling alive? The answer was – nowhere. I was sapping my own vitality by not doing things that made me feel alive on an everyday basis. It has been a year since I quit my job to pursue activities like writing, singing, traveling and anything else that fills me with joy. Yet today the stress of having a negligible bank balance is nothing compared to the stress of feeling dead and numbed by my mundane IT job.

For healers, their clients are more often than not mirrors of something that is healing within them. Like this client above, I tend to delay singing, which has been my passion since childhood. One day I was feeling unusually restless. My mind was super active and I had started getting frequent headaches. Meditation didn’t help. My bowel movements were upset too which my Ayurvedic doctor said was owing to too much mental activity. I sat down and asked my body, “What is it that you want?!”, much like a frustrated mother. I felt a lump in my throat and the diaphragm vibrate as if I was singing. I got my tanpura machine out and started tuning my voice. In the 2 hours that I spent then, the restlessness ceased, the mind quietened. For a few days I started practicing regularly. My digestion got better. I felt energised, rather than exhausted after each practice session. Today even as I write this, it is again a reminder for me to restart my regular practice, for just last night, I had a vivid dream of singing with a full throat, operatically. The subconscious finds ways to communicate to our conscious self. And I choose to listen rather than ignore this second sign (the first sign being the client).

Dr.Newton Kondaveti, my past life regression teacher, has written a book called Consciousness Heals which talks about how the body is a hologram of your subconscious mind. He loving quotes to us often, “the body never lies“. The signs of discomfort that our body shows are messages. Even though some of us know this and have practiced listening to the body and seeing the success behind it in the past, we get lazy, or fall back into the old groove of things and start ignoring our body language. It is so easy to go to a doctor, get a prescription, get a few drugs and go back to the same way of living. But what if we stopped for a moment and looked deeper? My earliest beliefs about my body were that it is just there. I almost treated it like a machine. I popped pills like Crocin, etc. without a second thought. Until I read Deepak Chopra’s book, Quantum Healing when I was about 17 years old. I was stunned by the outlook of how the mind is an energetic entity present in every cell of the body. Hence, effectively our body is like an intelligent, ever-alert organism that is listening to our thoughts 24×7. It not only listens to those thoughts, but organically feels those thoughts and shapes itself accordingly.

In another spontaneous healing months ago I was sitting in GD‘s Sunday sessions and felt like crying. I was tired of being sick owing to one year of regular fevers and indigestion. I was on a heavy Ayurveda course but I felt like I was hanging by a thread. I was afraid to die. That Sunday I was also very tensed and scared. Through the session, something GD said triggered me and I started crying copiously. The thoughts that went on in my mind were, “why do I have to have this body?! I hate this body! I just want to die and get it over with!” I had spontaneously processed a past life conditioning that the body is a burden to the soul. Hence, I was dreading paying attention to it. After that catharsis and looking at the root thought i.e the body is a burden, I felt much lighter than I had in over a year. I stopped taking the weakness so seriously. I was calmer while paying attention to the body. At the same time, GD’s advaitic reminder that “you are not the body, you are not the mind“, finally started to open up a greater awareness. This same thought was being used earlier to escape the body, rather than treat the body as an instrument of the divine, a mistake a lot of Advaita followers do.

There are so many other ways in which body needs to be addressed instead of just through diets, cancer and exercise. Leonard Orr, pioneer of Rebirthing-Breathwork and Immortality in his book The Owner’s Manual writes about how the element of Earth relates to our body. In that he mentions that not only is regular fasting a powerful way of earth purification that heals the body, but also your career. There is a wonderful affirmation he gives:

I daily make valuable contributions to the aliveness of myself, others and of humanity.

I am tempted to think that our favorite singers, filmmakers and artists who make us come alive are the biggest healers on this planet right now. I love watching an American television series called So you think you can dance and I am deeply moved by the sheer quality of heart and soul they put into dancing. In some sequences it feels like they are moving the whole world through their body. It transcends competition. And it almost always makes me get up and sing with more passion, or do yoga with more zest.

The other ways I have found to relate to the body are – blessing the water that I drink or have a bath with, inspired by Massaru Emoto’s Water Experiment. Chanting the mantra “Om Namah Shivay” before I start cooking, inspired by my grandmother who cooked the most delicious food ever. Blessing the food on my plate with the mantra “Krishnarpan” – dedicating the food to Lord Krishna and invoking his presence who transformed the poison in the 14th century saint, Mirabai’s body (since we are exposed to so many chemicals in the food we are served regularly), asking him to transform it into Light. Silently sending gratitude and abundance to all who conspired to bring it to my plate. Sleeping a good 10 to 12 hours a day that makes me feel refreshed and happy. I also “verify” some of my decisions by passing that thought through my body and checking how the decision feels in my body. Usually, intuitions, knowingness arrive at a bodily level too.

I came across another interesting case through a friend of mine who is a tarot card reader. As she looked up the cards for a health issue a client was going through, the cards said that this lady had suppressed her romantic feelings in a past relationship which led to an upset in her body. Somewhere she had begun to get a message that her romantic nature is not okay with this past lover which led to her childlike enthusiasm being suppressed. She was quite shocked to discover this and as she went on to make a list of what her romantic desires were, her own comfort with herself increased. This subsequently alleviated her symptoms.

Recently, the Hay House newsletter carried the following excerpt:

Now I was watching Lissa Rankin—a doctor in today’s generation of new thinkers. Her patients aren’t the Baby Boomers who grew up on fast-food, sugar-coated cereals and excessive dairy products. Many of Lissa’s patients are joggers, juicers and health nuts. They eat their green vegetables, exercise daily and watch their weight. Yet many of them still have the same problems that we all have—they are feeling sick, tired and headachy and they aren’t sleeping well, still gaining weight and losing their drive to carry on another day.

The turning point for Lissa was when she decided to ask her patients a very critical question: “What does your body need in order to heal?” She didn’t expect the answers she heard: “I need to quit my lousy job” “I need to forgive my father.” “I need to write my novel.” “I need to leave my toxic relationship.”

Then Lissa told her patients something they didn’t expect either. She said that they could write their own prescription and optimize their chance of being cured of any health conditions that might plague them. She did her research and had scientific proof that they could heal their lives.

The best prescription for your health is written by you alone. And slowly I guess all of us are waking up to the fact that how can another person based on certain, however elaborate studies, be the authority for what fix you need to apply to your body to “set it right” when it was never a standard machine in the first place? 

With gratitude to author Chitra Jha for her FB update on the body’s wisdom.

A recent past life regression experience that shows the deep interconnections we have in life.

Questions answered with my own experience:

* Can we remember what we have seen while undergoing a session even after the session?
> Yes. Although there is so much information that is flowing in when you are in a session, that you definitely need someone to record it and replay it to you. That’s one thing a regressionist, or a facilitator, does.
This happens when you have completely shut down your “mind” – rather there are very few thoughts. These memories pop up and are unanalysed. The less of an analytic, the more “real” the memories are in the session. That is the main reason why we generally say, “trust the process completely. Surrender to it”.
Experience: During my second rebirthing session(a technique of PLR), I was able to completely give in to my feelings, visions, etc. The sensations I had were tremendous. I saw a past life where I had led a very poor and cannibalistic lifetime. The point in that lifetime to which I was regressed, I saw myself in a graveyard. I saw a vision of me as an ugly looking man crouching near a grave(Clairvoyance aspect – wherein you see). The information that came in was that I had waited stealthily for the burial ceremony to get over so that i could dig the grave and recover the body(Claircognizance aspect- wherein a lot of information flows in). After that I had a vision of me eating the recently buried body. Therein I also sensed that the person who’s body I had dug out, had not yet transcended. The soul, who happens to be my soulmate in this lifetime too, was moaning, asking me to stop doing that; to realise my Divinity(Clairsentience aspect – wherein you feel/sense/smell/taste).
The purpose of this regression was to recover and face my ‘dark side’. After this session I was able to embrace and accept and then heal my dark side. I also realised how I was being taken care of even at the lowest point of my human lifetime. I learnt what is meant by “being human”. Moreover, I realised that these supposedly “bad” or “evil” lifetimes, whether our own or others’ serve a purpose – souls choose this to gain an experiential understanding of qualities of love, humanity, security, etc. Hence, I learnt judgment of any situation, incident, lifetime or being is useless. This understanding for me is priceless.

*  Can one do PLR just to know what was there in our past life…out of curiosity?
> I know for sure that PLR is very serious business. As described above, it recovers aspects of you that go beyond your imagination. For people who are “newly” taking a session, the mind conflicts, rules which are nothing but beliefs, conflict. This conflict causes people to resist. Which basically means they refuse to accept. As with anything, lack of acceptance causes pain. So people also tend to jerk out of the session and might feel impacted, thinking – how can this be possible? how can I be this way?
Before you feel only the bad things come through, let me personally assure you, there are also recollections of lifetimes that have been perfectly beautiful and relatively uneventful. The purpose of these lifetimes is to teach you how simple a human life can be, and still it can teach so much experientially.
Experience #1: In one PLR session I took for a person who was merely curious, she regressed to only one vision: that of her being a young girl of about 7yrs alone on a beach. This was just 20 minutes into the regression session. Before I could regress her any further, she snapped out sharply. When I asked her what the matter was, she said, there was too much loneliness…. she couldn’t take it. I was taken aback. From this session I learnt not to take sessions for people who lack understanding of what a session can be like. It also demonstrated a lack of acceptance of a feeling as strong as vulnerability.
Experience #2: In a rebirthing session I took for another person, he regressed to a lifetime of a shepard where he lived a very simple life. He saw himself lovingly taking care of each and every goat and sheep he owned. His family consisted of only his sister, who is also his sister in this lifetime. He felt his love for the earth, gazing at the stars at night, the weather, the Earth and its beauty. He also experienced intensely how simple life can be. Then he witnessed his sister’s death, and how he was left all alone. He saw it then why he has been so close to his sister in this lifetime. He felt sheer and intense sadness at her loss, and the loneliness. He continued down that lifetime as a shepard who was lost in loneliness and his thoughts. Then I regressed him to the day of his death. At that time, he saw what he described as cosmic dust…like the small particles one sees in a ray of sun. He felt being carried by these particles. Then he felt his soul hovering above his body and he dissolving with those particles and becoming the particles themselves. When I asked him what he learnt from this lifetime, his face was in the most tranquil state I have ever seen anyone in. He smiled angelically and said, “Only Love matters. I learnt what Love is”. I had to leave him in that state for quite sometime before he could come back to this lifetime. When he did, in the post-session talk, he put together another vital piece of this lifetime – his burning passion for Nature and mother Earth. He said he felt Love and the intimate relationship with Earth that no one can put in words. And he finds a way of expressing this by being a very active environmentalist today.
The purpose of this regression session was a deep sense of dissatisfaction felt generally by the person, who was then struggling with finding the right career and a good job. After the session he completely lightened up and started enjoying life for what it was, with a sense of contentment. Soon he also attracted an amazing job which supported all his needs and desires like good people to work with, passion for creativity, being close to his house, etc. This has been a recurring observation of mine that after one learns to be Divinely content, our core desires manifest easily and effortlessly.

* Will I get stuck in a past life?
> What I have experienced is that the maximum that happens especially in the case of one or more traumatic past lives is that one continues to see that same past life in more than one session, and the effect of the first session is very strongly felt in that space of time between the 2 sessions, be it a few hours or few weeks. But “stuck” is not the appropriate word. It’s just emotions from that session which will take up a major part of your attention.
In order to let go of these feelings, one must ground oneself. For this we regressionists generally advise people to eat chocolates, take a walk in nature, dip your feet in the water or doing some physical activity so as to get re-oriented in the current life. Even activities like pottery, painting, gardening, etc. help a lot after the session to allow the person to get oriented again. Of course, every session must be followed up with a talk with the regressionist regarding your realizations and feelings during the session, about the session, as a regaining-of-composure of sorts activity. There should be no rush here. Many a times I have experienced my clients suddenly popping up with realizations relating to their day to day activities like, “oh, that’s why I feel this!! that’s why I do this!”. These are very important, because they give you a mental understanding about how eternal your life truly is.
Experience: I had attended Dr.Newton’s Basic PLR workshop when I had seen only 1 glimpse of my traumatic lifetime as a Nazi grave digger/worker in Germany. That one glimpse rocked me to the core even after I have had numerous sessions of traumatic lifetimes. In addition to that one glimpse, a lot of information flowed in as always – I was questioning in my head how can we be called the superior race if we don’t value human life? Around me I could feel many tall souls mourning soundlessly. It was an intensity of emotion which felt so gray and cold that it seemed it was devoid of Life Energy itself. After the session, I was sitting in one corner holding my face in my hands. But I could “self-therapise” myself by telling me that I forgave myself for choosing this. It was then that I learnt the balance of Karma. An understanding about Hitler and the life he had chosen – his was a soul which had chosen to undertake a very heavy karmic burden so as to teach thousands of souls a lesson in humanity they would never forget. Inspite of being an agent in causing such a tremendous transition in souls across the planet, he still would be balancing out this Karma. There was another hidden lesson for me in this. When we act on a superior’s orders to kill someone or harm someone, it still is a choice, and we are the only ones responsible for that choice. The superior is no where involved in this choice, something Richard Bach explains in his book, One. All of this was the aftermath of the session.
The purpose of this session was soul retrieval; when a very traumatic incident occurs, a soul “leaves” a part of it in that lifetime. On re-visiting such a lifetime and the incident these energies integrate back into us. This session helped me overcome my resistance towards learning German which absolutely surprised me when I became aware of it. I was able to sail through my German exam a few days later and score well in them.

* Will I actually “see” things?
> There are 4 ways to re-experience our memories:
>Clairvoyance – Visions like a movie, like dreams, etc. These can be very vivid, rapid, black and white, or colored. Visions also can be very symbolical; when a person’s basic belief system would clash with the actual vision of what happened, then a person sees metaphors or symbols.
Experience: One of my initial and most difficult regression session was with someone who would only get scenes from movies in her PLR session! I later understood this happened because, being a psychologist, she had an extremely analytical mind frame. Later more than one past lifetimes were built up using these scenes and we could piece together the whole story.

>Claircognizance – This is probably the most common way of receiving information – by just “knowing”. A lot of times people get rapid waves of information especially regarding their geographical location, the historical period, family details, social background, etc. of that lifetime. Moreover, this is a common way of what people generally describe as “gut feelings”.
Experience: I had once seen what I call as a ‘transition’ lifetime in which I had transitioned from being a young soul to a mature soul. I first had a vision of a beautiful girl in a white dress and me being an army general. When my therapist asked me do you recognize her from this current lifetime, I immediately knew that person as being a family member I am very close to. The session was a very emotional one as it later unraveled like a movie where I saw she was the king’s daughter and was fond of horses which I would rear in addition to being a general. I then saw how I would take the best horse for her and guard her while she was on it. Later in this lifetime the king was somehow overthrown by a revolution, another piece of information which just came to me. I then saw a vision of how I finally carried her limp body out to the stables, laying her on the hay and weeping uncontrollably out of the loss of love, coupled with the information that she was pillaged and killed by the soldiers who were below me. It was a lifetime where I first became aware of what love feels like.

>Clairsentience – Sense of taste, smell, touch and feelings. It’s possible to smell the dinner on the table or wood or flowers or incense and even recognize the specific smells. However, if a person is used to a PLR session, the person becomes more likely to “feel” their feelings – like fear, abandonment, presence of people around, tensed atmospheres, celebrations, etc.
Experience: The first, extremely vivid PLR session I’d had was where I had regressed into an Egyptian lifetime as one of the women in the royal family. This was the basic PLR workshop and the moment my therapist, Dr.Lakshmi, counted down to 1 and said, “be there Now”, I felt a distinct shape shift in my body; my back felt more rigid and I felt taller than I have ever felt before! I felt a tightness of posture suddenly, a grace and stride in my walk, and the distinct feeling that I am royalty, that my feet had never known dust! After that I was asked to look down at my feet by Dr.Lakshmi, and I saw that was indeed true! My skin was the color of amber-honey and I wore gold heavy anklets and a snake-like amulet in my upper arm. I felt something soft and cold move near my feet, and I saw snakes slithering around me while I was in a passage with gold embellished pillars and archways, carrying a plate of gold. I felt gold like never before! Snakes it seems were common pets… even in the rich, luxurious baths incensed with roses and other scents with flowers floating around. Moreover, I felt vanity in me which took me by complete surprise. Later I went on to discover I became engaged to a general, a person whom I had connected in my current lifetime very deeply to, but had never cared about him, and lesser still loved him. I later went on to marry him, but ended up having multiple affairs because I loved the status of being married to a general as brave as him, but wanted to have my own conquests to satisfy my vanity. On being regressed to a significant event of that life, I saw this man I’d married lying dead on the royal bed. It came to me then that he had died of heartbreak because I had never realised the importance of love, and loved him. I saw myself kneeling at the bedside and kissing his feet begging for his forgiveness, and realising the futility of money, wealth and vanity.
The purpose of this session was to explore a relationship of this lifetime. The general in that lifetime was someone I had had a tumultous relationship with in this life, and who had left me out of fear that I will cheat him. It was an emotional torture from both sides because we could never develop trust but still felt insanely obligated towards each other, and even a year after breaking up I was not able to accept his disappearance from my life. After this very profound session, I was able to watch the habitual thinking about him my mind had developed with an observational point of view, being completely emotionally detached from the thoughts. Eventually, the thoughts died out.

>Clairaudience – Listening. Here a person can hear a different language being spoken, names from that lifetime being called out and other sounds playing while the person is regressed to that lifetime.
Experience: I was assisting a regression session being done on a fellow therapist who has herself had many PLR sessions done on her. This was one of my practice sessions during my PLRT training. As she regressed back to an ancient Indian lifetime, she started to recall everything! She relayed to us her name as she was called out in the fields, the sound of her ghungroos(anklets) as she was running across them, the sound of the bullock ploughing the farm and later on even  a man selling peanuts at the newly built railway station. It was astonishing for me and my fellow therapist to the detail in which she experienced all of this.

Most people have one dominant way of receiving information, while the other senses are generally muted. Over a period of sessions however, our senses open up more and there comes a time when we completely experience a memory through a balance of all these 4. I generally recommend 3 sessions for a person to completely understand PLR for themselves and integrate the experience intellectually to know which of the senses of that person are really active and to allow the flow of information without mental inhibitors – thoughts.

* How many sessions will I need?
> Generally the first session is a deciding factor. As I have mentioned above, I generally suggest 3 so that the mental receptivity of that person increases with every session. But there are cases where in the first session itself the person has experienced such a fine level of detail that a person feels “changed”. There are also cases where the person’s analytical mind or resistance is so strong, that after 5 sessions with various techniques tried, the person has been unable to see or feel much. There are also many sessions wherein the person has fallen asleep, but the inner subconscious is listening actively!
Experience: In one of my sessions, the first in a line of 3 sessions that I conducted for this client, the person went into a deep relaxed state, but so deep that he stopped talking altogether. I thought he was in sleep since his face was completely immobile. I asked him if he was seeing anything. No response. I then asked if he was feeling any sensations in his body. No response. Then I tried the Ideomotor technique, where I told him to lift any finger of one of his hands if he could hear me. And he did! Then I guided him out of the session. Until I counted forwards up to 5, there was again no response. However, when I said 5 and told him that he will awaken now, he promptly opened his eyes as if from a good night’s sleep and apologized for having slept off in the session. When I told him about the Ideomotor response he had given just a few minutes earlier, he was astounded since he believed he was fast asleep. This session gave me an understanding of how the mind operates even at the subconscious level, and how hypno-therapeutic tapes are actually effective.

It is also important to understand that some sessions have an immediate effect while others take time to reveal their effects in your life. This varies from person to person and case to case. We generally recommend a period of 20 to 40 days for the spiritual process which has started through the session to complete its course show its corresponding physical manifestation in your life.
Another subtlety I have observed is that a person generally doesn’t get too emotionally connected in the first session itself. The best way for a PLR session to work is to completely be there and experience the emotions in their entirety so that complete re-living and hence relieving of that issue takes place.

As described by Judy Hall, a famous past life regressionist, a person generally experiences PLR in 3 phases:

• First is when a person simply sees images like an observer watching a movie, or photographs, in a completely detached way. Generally the images are very rapid or even blurred at times. Even a non-seeing person gets bits and scraps of information, or hears faintly or feels somewhat unsurely.
• Second stage is when the person actually finds him/her self there, experiencing the memory.
• Third stage is when the person physically feels every emotion of the session, regardless of whether the memory was clear to him/her through any of the other senses. These are the most effective sessions when a person completely surrenders and is in a state of flow with his/her emotions. True catharsis happens and this catharsis may continue even hours after the session in the form of crying, writing, speaking, etc. In addition to the catharsis, deep soul retrieval also takes place when one goes into a complete surrender state.

However, there is no fixed measure of the number of sessions a person will take to experience the totality of emotions.

* How long does a session last?
> It again depends on the receptivity of the individual taking the session. On an average, a session goes to about 1 and a half to 2 hours, plus the pre-session and post-session-integration discussion. However, I have heard Dr.Newton cite an example of a session he had taken which lasted 6 hours! Eventually, one must keep aside ample of time for the session – i.e both the therapist and the client.

* Is there any preparation required from the person who is going to undergo the session before or after the session?
> Yes. There is a fair bit of ‘preparation’ which includes the following:

1. Ana-pana-sati Meditation­ ­- Due to so much mind activity we do on a daily basis as well as improper sleep we generally take, I recommend people to meditate 40 minutes per day for one month before coming to the session. When you come for the session, you should be used to being in a thoughtless state of mind which gets cultivated through the vipassana or ana-pana-sati meditation technique. This will allow you to extract maximum benefit from every session you take. Moreover, even after the session one must meditate to continue healing and integrate the learnings gained from the session.
2. Observing your dreams­ – Often leading up to the session, and even more so after the session, one gets very significant dreams. Many a times, the spiritual work and realizations of a session continue in dreams. One must keep a book and pen handy to write down immediately everything remembered from the dream(s). Many feel they don’t have dreams, which is not true. Regarding those who feel they can never remember their dreams, it takes a fair amount of practice and laying down a strong intention while falling asleep to remember them after waking up. This is exactly like programming the mind to wake up at a particular time every morning like a bio-alarm. Dream observation for 40 continuous days yields the soul’s own language of talking to you through your subconscious. Like each one with a different fingerprint, every soul has a unique way of communicating to oneself, in the form of dreams, through metaphors, past life memories, symbols, etc. Discovering it reveals talents and sides of you that you’d otherwise never be aware of. and can be quite fascinating.
3. Observing a vegetarian diet – Food is the body’s primary way to take in Cosmic energy. At the time when you are spiritually working on your self, it is best to regulate the kind of food you eat, such that it keeps you at a high vibrational frequency. Observing a vegan diet, devoid of meat and eggs is the best way to do this. An increase in the intake of fruits with a reduced consumption of milk and milk products is even better. Also, one can observe an organic diet as it is the best. Moreover, one should avoid junk foods, alcohol, sleep-inducing medications and drugs totally.
4. Keeping aside time on the day of the regression – Make sure you haven’t come from a crazy shopping spree or a movie to take a past life regression, as you would find it difficult to focus. Come in and if required, take some time to get acquainted with the place and the therapist before the session. You can also meditate with the therapist before even starting the pre-session talk to get focused. Moreover, ground yourself after the session. Planning a hectic schedule after the session is a bad idea. One might feel too disoriented from an intense session to be going out for a movie, traveling or being in the midst of crowds. Planning a relaxing activity after the session like taking a walk in a peaceful place, playing with kids and pets, painting, pottery or gardening, etc is a good idea.
5. Keeping in touch with the therapist – Even after a very satisfactory session you might have questions occurring to you regarding a myriad of things. It’s good to keep in touch with the therapist and get these cleared or get guidance on the same. It helps both the therapist and you if you provide feedback to the therapist regarding the benefits or changes you observed in your life after the session, especially a month to 40 days after the session.
6. Choosing the right therapist – Meet the therapist before the first session. Take time to gauge your comfortability with him/her. Ask questions, read books. It is very important to be completely comfortable and trusting the therapist completely with your issues/concerns prior to the session. Remember the therapist is a guide, not an absolute. Ultimately your own feelings take precedence.

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On a whirlwind flashback, one of my dear friends who had just been through this session last year, told me to jot down my reasons for attending this session, the things I wanted to extract from this session, and now is a good place for me to thank her for inducing me into doing that, as my path remained as steady as a rock thanks to this practice and I can clearly feel the affirmation of my success beating in my heart as I reflect on it.

Dr.Newton splendidly demonstrated the Christos technique, which begins with massaging the feet. It serves to say that just before he began his discourse, I was feeling like having a foot massage. As we headed out to wrap up our packing and check out of the resort, I was feeling desolate. I would miss this place. I would miss Dr.Newton and Dr.Lakshmi because everytime I am in their presence, I have a profound feeling of “home” with an intensity more than I could have ever imagined as a child! I was leaving home, like a little child, and going out in the world that I distinctly did not like. In a daze coupled with a lackadaisical attitude, driven by my ever-effervescent, (s)mothering roomie, I finished the menial packing that was left, and headed out to the session room, where we were to complete the last leg of the training: actually practising the Christos and Ideomotor techniques with our assigned compatriots. As the Uni-Verse would have it, I was paired with the one fellow therapist with whom I have an exceptional connection. I knew this was it. This was “the” session I was waiting for, probably all of my current Life. As my excitement and tension began to mount, I felt the need to focus the energy of my therapist and myself to the task at hand, rather than let it mount to a disturbing extent. Hence, I requested him to meditate and visualize clearly, in one glimpse,of how the session would progress. I, on the other hand, focussed on calming my mind, by asking my left brain to allow my right brain to completely take over. Like a little child within me, I told myself to flow with my feelings. To trust my therapist completely. In a few moments, he was ready, and so was I. Our eyes connected, and our Souls reached the understanding.

As he began massaging my feet, as demonstrated by Dr.Newton, I lost the track of time. Feet have, quite bewilderingly, always been the most sensitive part of my body. It felt like 15 minutes of me resisting the waves of feelings in my feet, while my therapist later informed me that it was a mere 1-2 minutes. I started venting out my feelings…I felt like my feet were crying. It was overwhelming. In my mind’s eye, I saw at first multiple, identical visions of one baby, in a foetal state, crying. I informed my therapist.Through it all, my therapist was having a comically arduous time crawling back and forth between massaging my feet, and listening to my barely audible self.

Finally, the visions merged into one single prenatal baby who was crying and now the messages had started flying rapidly between me and the baby. In order to avoid letting my left brain interfere in this communication, I started to say out loud every bit of conversation to my therapist; my side, as well as the baby’s. Let the therapist have the analyzing headache, I told myself silently. A few more minutes into this conversation, I had discovered the heartbreaking connection with my therapist; one that I had a swift inkling of when he was himself being regressed the previous day through rebirthing. It was heart-wrenchingly poignant. It took all the therapist’s mental discipline and courage to not empathise with it all and get washed away in the waters I was experiencing of which he realised he was a prominent part of, as that would indeed have led to a failure of the session, and to the comical end of the healer and the healed crying and hugging each other in an almost ridiculous way.

As one connection had barely unravelled, I had swiftly flown into the rebirthing technique, and its associated session that I had experienced in an incomplete way the previous day. This was now to be the completion of what had begun the previous day. As my skilled therapist intuitively guided me, I experienced the full-blown impact of 2 of my lifetimes being simultaeneously manifested in my body. The first one, which was half-explored previously, came back to me in greater intensity and was connected to my lifelong fear of giving birth. Just as I had unravelled the workings of this one, my body gave way to the second violent sensation that, in a few moments, took me to another cannibalistic lifetime. This was my most challenging moment in the entire experience. It was the great test for my mind to truly know whether it had allowed complete possession to my right “sensing” brain. It was also the deciding point wherein I heard the advice of my therapist-of-the-previous-rebirthing-session during the Integration phase, telling me to be expressive with my physical body, and not try to control it as vigorously as I was used to. Her advice was my turning point. I gave in. I let myself crumble to the sensations. It was then that I truly experienced “trust” as a feeling, as I trusted her in the most complete sense. I landed with extreme intensity in that moment, and felt the shattering violence in me that I had always abhorred in the external world. As I went with the flow, I slowly transported to the LBL stage and saw my Guides. Herein, I experienced my fascinating connection with my (ex-??)roomie, the Why’s and How’s of that Life. Then came my overwhelming experience of actually sensing what people mean by Divinity. My Soul Family, comprising of my therapist, my roomie, and a few others surrounded me. I was like a child surrounded by my fairies. They seemed to be clapping for me as I seem to rise to their level…graduating in a way. They seemed to tell me, you are our Equal. You are just as great and divine a being as any one of us. You are beautiful. As I saw myself level with them, I felt like a child being applauded for her talent. Now I can strike the semblance to the scene of Taare Zameen Par, when the kid is awarded and applauded for his painting by his school and his mentor. My ever-conscious, ever-loving therapist asked me what I was feeling. My lips made out just one word… Divine.

The raison d’etre of that Life just ending, now it was the time for me to embrace that part of me. The mother in me that had come into form through the earlier regressed lifetimes came awake again. This time I was consciously “scripting” the acceptance process. Speaking to my therapist all along, while I was self-guiding myself, it was his continuously supportive language, the sense that he was with me all along, that he believed me in all that I am and feared to be, and more importantly that he would “handle” whatever came undone, that gave me the courage and peace to go on.

I visualized a mirror with a beautiful antiquated frame, except that it had no glass. As I was facing it, instead of seeing myself, I saw a dark hooded figure standing on the other side of the “mirror” that felt negative…the part of me that I really need to embrace. As I stepped closer and closer towards the frame, I was enlightening the therapist about my actions in this LBL stage. One…into the frame and the darkness enveloped me for an instant. It was…the moment of Truth. My body went rigid and rose above the ground for an instant. Then I saw myself once again…rather the outline of my body with a mix of black smokeyness and light swirling within it. For a few moments I was intensely concentrated on conquering the darkness within me, as well as accept that it was finally Me…All of it. It was an arduous process, but I couldn’t stop now. Slowly, there was just a golden, fog-like luminosity I could feel swirling in me. I finally felt at Peace. As still as a lake.

A few moments later, my therapist asked me how I feel. I instinctively said, “I feel like praying”, with what felt like an imperceptible inner smile. I felt like bowing down and offering homage to the Presence that had made me reach this profundity. What felt like barely seconds later, I sensed a Voice speaking inside of me. I doubted it, and in my only silly outburst to my therapist, I said,” I don’t know if I should be trusting this….but I’m going to just say whatever is coming to me….” and therein it began. As I continued to further speak this voice, I had feeling of a Great Presence take over me. As was obvious it was the presence of a Master. I tried to identify it. At first it was obscure and I thought it might be Jesus, since I frequently pray to Him in real life. But I soon saw a very clear, vividly and extraordinarily graceful face of Lord Buddha….with the sweeping eyes that can bloom Lotuses even in the filthiest corners of the Earth. Soon I felt my voice change to something too powerful and resonant to have been mine in a stage where I was only a disciple deep into the throes of Divinity, praying. He enlightened me about my way of Life, the mistakes I have been making, my relationships with various people that are currently very close to my heart, as well as a trepidatious decision I will be making in my Life. All I could feel at that moment was Answered Prayers.

Then I started to feel His attention drift across the room, and I felt myself speak out His message in even louder tones to the entire room. He reminded us of what Dr.Newton had taught us, just hours before in his final discourse in our training program, about each of us doing our own Homework. About each of us taking care of ourselves before we begin to heal others. He said we needed to grow first. He even cited examples, saying that if we want to conduct a rebirthing session for one of our clients, it was vital that we had our blocks cleared by the rebirthing process first. He then passed a message to another fellow therapist, whom I shall fondly call Plant-Lady here, that she needed to meditate among trees. Although, as I would know later, she was not present in the room at that instant, He said He knows she could hear Him. That she was like a young plant herself, and that she has begun her process of inner transformation.

As He paused, I heard a shout that seemed to come from across the room. Focussed almost entirely inward, I saw Buddha turn and smile. The shout was from another girl being regressed at that moment by someone else; “Help her…” she cried out. Before, anything further could be said by anyone in the room, He spoke inside of me, “I am helping her”. At the same time, her therapist asked her who it is she is talking about in her regressed state, and she uttered my name. The girl in focus happened to be my namesake. Hence, her therapist asked her is she herself needs help, to which she reacted, “No…The other Deepti…” At this point, Dr.Lakshmi approached her and consoled her aptly saying, “She is being guided”.

It was eternities later that I felt the presence cease to a lesser form which I then realised was the Inner Voice that had been guiding me very actively all along day and night. This fall in intensity suddenly gave rise to tremendous thrashing of my upper right arm which I couldn’t control for a good 5 minutes. After several quaking moments of this, my body began to tremble with a lesser intensity. A few minutes later I asked my therapist to awake me. As he did, the energy not having yet left me completely, I had to make a superhuman effort to open my eyelids. I remember blinking a couple of times and my vision also reverberating with the energy I felt within. I wanted to hug my therapist, and tell him, “Yes…we did it!!” But instead, the emotion diffused in a powerful, draining swell of sobs and Dr.Lakshmi embraced me.

She rocked me like my mother never had.

I cried more…to convey to her… to Dr.Newton…to my therapist and wonderful Soulmate… to my roomie… to my namesake…to dear Plant-Lady… to the psychologist in whom I saw a girl wearing pink ribbons…

in so many emotions…in so many words… gratitude…humility….Divinity…grace…worship…love…Oneness.

The theme set into motion by Dr.Newton was manifested in me. Like jumping from the top of a pyramid, and discovering I had wings….I had finally learned to fly!
Today I have shared this for the sole purpose of sharing it with the most wonderful Soul Family I could’ve ever imagined discovering. I can say that I have truly loved them all in different ways, on different planes, as we all traveled through this process of self transformation… be it while we were having the rocking unscheduled dance party, or the flood of silent together sobs while watching “Yesterday’s Children”, or the midnight walk around the resort with “pataka”, or singing in an emotional chorus to “Imagine”, or hugging and making pictures so much so that I have definitely forgotten to have a look at the Case study book!!

I feel even more so loved and cherished by all of you…. and there are no words to express this feeling of gratitude which goes beyond the Earth’s Karmic cycles.

I leave you with my fave saying that I would say to myself whenever I felt alone and hugged my knees like a little girl….